Read this if you are 25 and don't have any idea what you are doing!

Read this if you are 25 and don’t have any idea what you are doing

When I was in high school, I used to draw inspiration from the 21-year-olds of that time, most of them who are from my neighborhood had just wrapped up their tertiary studies, finding employment in prominent companies…I was also convinced that by the age of 25 I would have everything in my life figured out, that perhaps I would be in a stable relationship/married

, owning a house

or car, 

but as it turns out, those kind of fantasies don’t always form part of one’s reality. I am graduating from University for the second time in April and time seems to have flown with a rocket. It makes me wonder if my high school self is looking at me in horror or delight, truth be told, I am 24-years old(25 in 6 months) and I don’t know what the heck I’m doing.

After five years of learning how to live by myself and being kind of independent, I’ve moved back into my mother’s house. While I do love my family and appreciate their unconditional love (or tolerance), I long to live far away from home again. After five years of making new friends and learning things about the world around me, I have gone back to the people I started life with.  I once said it in one of my old posts that once you leave home for a long time upon your return you will realise your entire family has developed a psychological disposition that doesn’t include you and all of a sudden you are just watching them do stuff without you.

I feel like I am 18 years again, the time I went to varsity for the first time with no life responsibilities apart from attaining my degree, except this time I don’t have the luxury of being 18. Life isn’t holding my hand or offering me anything for free anymore. Many of my peers have achieved what I thought I would have achieved by now and it feels like others have attained it all when I haven’t even began at. My big sister keeps assuring me that it’s going to be okay at some point and that this momentary ‘dry’ season shouldn’t drive me to despair about my future and as a young woman trusting in Jesus I’m drawing strength from him daily believing he will take care of me.

So what if you are not married yet, so what if you don’t have your dream job yet, so what if you don’t own any property yet like the next person? This life thing is not a competition (although Instagram makes it seem like it is), you are not in a race to beat anyone. This is your own journey.  

I may be 24 and have no idea what I’m doing and life has not played out as I had thought! So if you are in the same boat but not seeing the shore …..maybe there is something far more fundamental to life than marriage, great corporate job and wealth. That fundamental calling begs the question, why are we here? The answer to that question would surely cause us to see that all of life does not consist of marriage, great job and wealth and even without these, there is refreshing joy. Surely if all of life found its fulfilment and satisfaction in marriage, great corporate job and wealth, then life is sure empty and trivial and sad.